Another Sunday

And the eggs have been broken.
The bacon laid to rest. The belly of the dishwasher satisfied
at last. Oh, satiated coffeed world with your mind

in reverse and your soft body bound in flannel sheets,
how have I come to you again?
In the crash of weekday waves breaking

on the splintered porch, in the gravity and weightlessness
that hefts this ball of earth, its rotation part ritual,
part benediction. How I covet the hours

we will spend in the endless hedge grove
of banal and quiet tasks; picking up the magazines,
shaking out the doorstep’s mat.

In the yellow state I am in I cannot divine the day
or fathom a future form. From here it’s nothing
more than alliteration of motion. Though the calendar

pinned to the kitchen wall gapes in silent notation,
all attempts at formulation remain null.
Tomorrow I will don my grease-coat of complaint,

my lab-wear of ego. I will stand in the doorway
and admire the way the shore so soon becomes
the ocean floor.

Winter, Affirmation

 
Outside—
the peonies are beyond their deaths.
In here—on our continent of a bed—
we are busy showing each other pictures
of ourselves: mouth to rib, back to belly, palm
to hip. Here is the reciprocal breath, the sanctified
taking—my only chance
at reformation.
All day long I live in my head
and as the house bends toward twilight
you say, See here, you’ve got it all wrong.
Lie down. Get a load of our quiet profiles.
Outside—
the tubers have turned inward,
away from the light.
In here—in our cathedral of a room—
we are busy ridding ourselves
of words, holding our faces
to the mirror. Carrying out
our best directive.

Home Redux

 
This morning in the garden
           the soil smelled sweet.
Something beyond root
           or loam.
Something about skin
           and the body.
Say mother
           or perfumery.
Say memory....
Last night I dreamt
           of the old house again.
The rooms appeared larger,
           hallways deep and wrong angled.
No end to the floors,
           no out there.
Only more doors, lamps on bedside tables
           turned low, dishes draining
           on a sideboard.
Why that house
           when there were so many others?
That house
           where there was never remedy,
only more inquiry; unopened boxes, talk
           of paintings and rugs lost in transit—so much left
                      behind.
Today the grapevines reach
           their long arms over the roof
           of this house
and I wonder
           at memory’s storerooms.
At our capacity
           to accrue
the framework of windows, attic and crawlspace.
           Because I could not work it out then
I interrogate that house again and again,
           run the tips of my fingers
over plaster and paint—like a blind person
           feeling my way
along the backs of chairs and across lampshades.
           I make my way through
the tyranny of rooms.

A Seasonal Accord

 
Nettles grow tall just beyond the backyard fence,
out of reach—all season—growing on the sneak.
I hear them scuff and sway across the wood.
I haven’t the heart to cut them dead.

It happens every year,
the same tacit alliance—
the same exchange
of life, death and resurrection.

I peruse catalogs of false potential,
eye the seductive carnage-to-be.
Each page more raging with chi
than the one before.

Digging at the roots,
turning under cover crops,
I bend to the bed, rotate and plow.
Play at the putting off—

the inevitable prize of rot.
Though every adolescent sprout is pleasant,
congenial, a charmer full of fibs
and propaganda. Still, I can’t help but ask;

When does the real work begin?
When does the sky give leave
and let reason fall to the ground?
Why can't I just say it?

I do it for the loss, the fragility,
the decay so achingly sought
and the bloom never as satisfying
as the falling away.

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For I Have Sinned

 

It has been five hundred days,

countless meals and many mountain tops

since my last confession.

I have lusted in my heart

for the woman who sells me my morning coffee.

It’s just the way she stands sometimes

with her back to me and her waist turned just so.

I’d like to take her cheek into the bed of my palm,

tell her what a gift she is; she of the tender smile,

she of the warm offerings. I have coveted

my neighbor’s garden. I love it

and I don’t love it. The symmetry of it all.

The telltale heap of compost that mocks me

from the parking strip, every Tube Rose

preening in the sun, the Gerbera Daisies bobbing

on their brainless stems, and the way she idles at the edge

of beds in her drab green Wellingtons. The serious planning

of grace written all over her face.

Gluttony can’t be helped.

We’ve been over this, we’ve covered my inability

to just say no. Like when I packed my suitcases

full of Balsamico and Grappa, what I didn’t tell you

is that for days before I had eaten truffles

at every meal. I let their heady fungalness permeate.

I let each white sliver melt

on my tongue like the body of Christ.

And there are hours of sloth

like baptisms of guilt. Submerge me,

cover me I say I am a sucker

for the easy move, the natural incline,

any tripping toward entropy.

It’s no use. I know what you’ll prescribe.

I found nine Rosaries in my mother’s bedroom

after she died. Look at her now.

What a set-up; this propensity toward failings.

Lord, thy name is entrapment.

Let’s get on with it.

For God’s sake –

Bless me.

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https://readthebestwriting.com/for-i-have-sinned-tina-schumann/

"A World of Want" read by Garrison Keillor on NPR's Writer's https://www.garrisonkeillor.com/radio/twa-the-writers-almanac-for-august-27-2019/